A Weird Week

A weird week is coming to an end, and all I can say is thank fucking God. For some reason, I feel like Friday is actually my Monday in a way. I consider it to be the start of my week. Last week, I spent a day at work and then was out sick for Saturday and Sunday. I haven’t missed more than a day of work in over twenty weeks. I’ve missed days here and there for my RA duties, but not two days in a row. Being sick is definitely not how I’d want to spend my time. I felt guilty for calling out of work, but I felt like a lumpy garbage bag full of orange pulp. I felt the worst in the mornings, but I didn’t want to miss my classes. I had to force myself to get up on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Those classes were really brutal. I felt like I was running on empty. I was also on duty Monday and Wednesday night. Unfortunately, I received a really bad grade in my Fashion Art and Design class. It’s the worst grade I’ve gotten since I got to FIT. It really felt like a slap in the face after already having a rough time. It motivated me, but I’m used to doing pretty well in school. On Tuesday, I had to deliver a speech in my Public Speaking class. I still get relatively nervous about public speaking, but I don’t know what happened to me Tuesday. I’m such a confident speaker, but I bombed so fucking hard. It was so embarrassing. I started realizing that I was bombing, and it made me even more nervous. It was an endless cycle, and I just wanted the day to be over. Luckily, I had a pretty good Wednesday. I watched a shitty film in my film class and then took a nice nap. I ended up staying up too late and accidentally slept in until 3:00 PM on Thursday, my day off. I don’t mind getting up late, but doing it on a Thursday is the worst. I spent the whole day knowing that I’d be unable to fall asleep before I had to come into work today. I went to the movies with my friends at 10:30 PM and didn’t get back till 1:00 AM. I was still wide awake and played video games with my friends to kill my energy. I didn’t fall asleep until 3:00 AM again. I’m just trying to make it through today. I’m seeing Violet tonight and have to finish my new bulletin board. I don’t want to fall asleep immediately because I want to see Violet, but I’m surprised I’m halfway through my day and still standing. I’m exhausted. I’m always exhausted now. Hopefully, this upcoming week won’t blow as bad. I’ve had a great semester so far compared to last, but I hate my classes again. I really hope semester four is a fun one because you’re losing me right now, FIT! I’m excited to watch the new season of Drive to Survive. I can’t believe it has been a year since last season came out and I wrote a post about it. That post bombed hard, so I won’t bore you people with things that excite me anymore, assholes. I wrote this post on my lunch break. Reading it back now, I realize how much of a prick you all must think I am. This whole post is just complaining. “I, I, I” and “me, me, me.” All jokes and fun! Happy Friday, everyone—have a great weekend!