Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye!

I thought it was only right to finish my summer the same way I started it, posting late! I meant to finish this yesterday, but I became exceedingly busy. It feels weird posting on a Friday again! This will be the last official summer post and I’m sure you are all just as disappointed as I am. I’ve decided that going forward I’m going to continue to just post once a week on either Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday. It’ll be once a week or more for sure. I’m just not promising what day. It’ll be a fun surprise you can wake up to! I’ve been dreading this week for a while. I’m not ready to go back. No matter how hard I try to look at the positives, I fall back on the negatives. It’s nothing aimed personally. I’m just really happy where I am and I don’t want that to change. For the last two years I’ve been begging for the best of both worlds. When I was in the city, I wanted to be home. When I was home, I wanted to be in the city. There was no winning. Right now is the first time I’ve felt like I want to be exactly where I am. It’s hard to leave that behind. I'm not oblivious to the spoiled situation I am in. Obviously, you’d want it to be an upstate summer year-round, where you just played golf and saw your beautiful gorgeous girlfriend. I know it’ll become winter here and most of this good will be gone. The lack of responsibility I have right now is like the finest wine. All the responsibilities coming in are cyanide. My way of dealing with my current situation hasn’t been the best. I have put off everything. I haven’t packed one single thing. If you looked in my room, it would look like I was moving in, not out. Skip forward nine hours… I’m trying to write this post for the fourth time. I don’t know why I’m having such a hard time getting it done. You’ll probably see this late Friday or early Saturday and really be concerned for my current work ethic. Since I finished (stopped, I guess) writing earlier, I packed almost everything up and am almost fully ready to go. It was hard to sort through which clothes I wanted to bring and what I’d leave for later. I like having all my belongings together. I played pickleball for the first time this summer. I think I’m going to wake up in a lot of pain. I might go to Rochester tomorrow. My summer is pretty much over! That went by so fucking fast. I’m trying not to cry about it, but I’ve already failed a couple of times. I’m moving forward with positive thoughts and hopefully that’ll work. If not, next week I’ll be bitching and moaning some more! Thank you very much if you contributed to my wonderful summer! It was a great one! New York City here I come! Happy Friday!