Do I Regret My Decision?

I knew that when I chose to go to FIT, I wouldn’t have a normal college experience. I knew there was no actual campus. I knew there wasn’t going to be a ton of people who had stuff in common with me. I knew there wasn’t going to be much more than going to classes and doing homework. I decided it was the best choice for me and if I got in, I’d definitely commit and go there. Once I got in, my opinion kind of changed. Maybe there would be people with stuff in common with me. Maybe there would be more of a social life than I thought. The first few weeks of school were nice because everyone was scared of not making friends, so everyone was being overly friendly. That blew over pretty quickly, but I liked getting invited to stuff. My roommate and I talk all the time about whether we picked the right place for us. We are both in the middle of being art kids and a social Sally. It makes me think, do I regret going to FIT? Do I wish I went to a bigger state school? I don’t know. I guess I’ll never know. I think both options have different upsides and downsides. Nothing beats the city to me. I don’t think I could give up being in the city. If I didn’t get into FIT, I was going to go to ASU. How big of a fucking difference can that be? I’m glad I didn’t move across the country, but I could’ve been in warm weather, playing golf, and probably finding a group of guys who are closer to what my friends are like at home. I have plenty of acquaintances at FIT, but I really only have two guy friends and one of them is my roommate. I have friends that are girls, but that’s not the same. I’m assuming there’s a bigger group of idiots at ASU. Here at FIT we have a different kind of idiot, that I actually kind of enjoy. I don’t think I’d enjoy the meat heads at ASU very much. That’s a kind of idiot I can’t deal with. I hate it here sometimes, but I also love it to death. The answer is no. I don’t regret my decision. I don’t think I’d change my decision, but there are definitely fixes I’d make to FIT to make it better. I think I didn’t take the college application process seriously enough. I just happened to get lucky. I hope my kids do it better than I did. I didn’t tour anywhere and I didn’t research anywhere. I just said fuck around and find out. I found out! NYC is different from upstate New York, but it’s a good adjustment. I just miss trees. I miss golf. I don’t think I’d like cactuses of Arizona as much as I like trees. Sorry for the bad grammar again, the train is bouncy today! Happy Monday and hopefully I’ll pass my finals this week!