I Do What Makes Me Happy

The sad reality of life is that sometimes you have to do things you don’t want to do. My dad once said, “The only thing you have to do in life is die and pay taxes, and you don’t even really have to pay taxes.” While I know he was joking, he isn’t wrong. You could just go about life doing what you want to do. You’d never make any money unless you love to work. You’d probably break some laws here and there, but everything would be what you want to do. Sounds nice, right? I’m not exactly sure if it sounds that great. I guess part of life is doing shit you don’t want to do. My opinion changes when it comes to things that are in your control. I’ve always suffered from FOMO. I used to worry so much about missing anything, and it would drive me crazy if I wasn’t included. A friend of mine told me he only does things that make him happy. If it sounded fun, he went. If it sounded uncomfortable or miserable, he didn’t. At first, I couldn’t comprehend this. I go to everything. I started stretching myself so thin between family and two groups of friends. I started missing out on things I actually wanted to do because I already made plans. There was too much going on, and I decided to listen to my friend. I decided to only say yes to plans if I actually wanted to do them, not if I only felt like I was missing out. I rely heavily on alone time to reboot, and I wasn’t giving myself enough time. This change works great for me. I’ve had to ease into it, but this summer, I have really prioritized myself and done what I wanted to do. My friends might be angry that I don’t show up to anything anymore, but to be honest, I love being at home with my family and my Violet. I enjoy it ten times more than an average night out. Why pick something else if I’d rather be home? My friends should understand that. My family should understand if I go out instead too. If it is my downtime, I should get to pick what I want to do. Although I’ve been trying to live like this for just over a year now, I’m still not the best at it. Sometimes I forget to make plans with some people I really miss. One of the best things about graduating high school is not having to make plans or waste time with random people. I only really see my best friends and people I really care about now. It does really bother me that I suck at giving everyone their fair share, but I’ll get there. Time management is a road I’m struggling on, but it’s a process. I started my main summer job today, so each post for the next few weeks might be a little late. Bear with me! Happy Monday!