I’m Tired and I’m Stupid

I think almost every other Friday post starts with the fact I’m on the train heading home and the grammar of this post won’t be great. Well this Friday is no different than the others. I’m heading back to Cooperstown again for a multitude of reasons. I found that last weekend I completely wasted my time and just layed in bed. I had no work to do and just rotted away. Now that the weather is getting nicer, I would rather be home playing golf than taking shelter in my dorm. I don’t know how some of you college students don’t go home all the time. I love going home. With the semester coming to an end, I do have some work to do this weekend. I have a photo shoot I need to do for a styling class and a few presentations. I’m so sick of doing presentations. I have almost three a week. That’s too much. I’ve grown to hate PowerPoint and Excel. Microsoft you suck! There are a lot of people finishing up their school year today and some of them will be home. I’m excited to be reunited with Keegan. There’s also an F1 race this weekend that I’m excited for. I was going to write this post about how I’m ready to be done with the school year. Then I was going to write about how I’m an idiot. I decided on a mix of both. I’m very ready for it to be summertime. I want to go to work, play golf and see my friends. I want to not have to have deadlines and due dates. I’m getting mentally exhausted. I know two weeks into summer I’ll miss the city and want to go back, but right now I’m pretending like that won’t happen. That’s how it was over winter break. Going back is going to be very different. I hate change. I had to get used to having a roommate, but now I’m really bummed out that I won't have the same one again. Fritz is great and I don’t think I want to live alone. He keeps me entertained and he’s the only person who I have stuff in common with at school. I love coming back from class and just talking. I won’t have that next year. I’ll go back to an empty room with no personal pisser. I’ll also have a lot more responsibility next year. I like not being responsible. Next year is exciting, but I’m dreading it too. We’ll see! I’m also an idiot. I think that’s pretty well documented, but I think I’m losing it. I can tell I’m getting drained more than usual, but that’s no excuse for being stupid. I left my markers in my dorm, again. I bring them around like a blankie, but every time I go home I forget them. I can’t really do my drawings-a-day if I don’t have them. I have to find a way to make it work and barrow markers from my dad and sister. I’m limited on colors. This time I forgot my paper too. I started making a to-go pile before I left to try and make it impossible to leave them. That didn’t work. I’m bringing some of my clothes home so moving out is easier so I had a suitcase with me this time. My pile got kind of faded and I left them behind. Ding dong! I’m stupid! Anyway, enjoy your weekend and go see “Challengers”! Happy Friday!