The Horrors of Honesty

I've always had a hard time keeping my mouth shut. I like to give my opinion on everything, and I don't try to sugarcoat things. I have never been good at sugarcoating things. If I hate something, I feel like it is worse to hold my tongue and have someone go about their day with my lie in their head. Honesty is a two-faced monster. Some people appreciate it. Some people hate it. I'm a hypocrite when it comes to honesty. I don't like when people tell me the hard truths, but I love telling people the hard truth. I don't think being a hypocrite is the worst thing to be in the world; I guess it is something to work on, though. Why shouldn't I be honest? If the truth hurts, maybe that can be constructive, or maybe it can just be plain hurtful. It's a blurred line for me. Maybe the way to do it is to only let fifty percent of my opinion out and keep the harsh fifty percent in. That still leaves me with a bit of an itch, but it doesn't leave anyone terribly unhappy. If someone is an idiot, they are an idiot. If someone is a dickhead, they are a dickhead. That isn't my fault; that's theirs. I'm just stating the clear obvious of the situation or at least my opinion of it. It tears me apart. I wish I was content with letting things go. I love when the truth is kind or helpful. Then I can let anything I want come out of my mouth. Both parties leave happy. Most of my opinions focus on the negative aspects of things. I don't consider myself a negative or positive person, but I like to nitpick what people can change about things, whether it's themselves, their work, or whatever it happens to be. My mom always tells me sometimes it isn't my place to have an opinion about something. I totally disagree with this statement. My mom is a kind and considerate person, so I know her way of going about this is probably the right way to go. I guess I'm just an asshole. My way of thinking goes, every single person in the world makes opinions about things and makes initial judgments. Some people share these judgments, and some people don't. I happen to like to share my initial thoughts. You are a complete fucking liar if you say you make no initial judgments when you see someone or something. If someone is taking a shit outside of Madison Square Garden (true story), you are going to make an initial judgment. I think that is totally okay! You are being honest, and that might suck. I classify lying as not telling the truth, which means you tell a different fact than what actually happened. So, you actively made the choice to change the truth. Some people classify lying as not telling the truth, meaning you withheld the true information no matter if you even said anything. So, you just keep the information in. With some people's classification of lying, people who don't share their opinions are liars. I don't like quiet, judgy people. Just say it. I'd like to hear people's opinions in the comments. Whenever I say this, nobody comments, so I understand. I feel like an ass after posts like this, but it has been weighing on me recently. I do try to be a kind person, and I let some of these tendencies get in the way of that. Happy Wednesday, everyone!