Time Will Fly!

I think writing these over the summer is going to be difficult, but I will try my best to keep it going as long as I can. I keep forgetting what day of the week it is. I thought today was Thursday. I think the days go by quicker in the summer and I get lost in it so easily. One day it is Tuesday and it feels like it jumps to Monday so quickly. I’m not very good at being present over the summers. I’m not good at being present all the time actually. I’m always worried about the next day and the next thing. The summertime is supposed to be relaxing and free. You are supposed to enjoy it while it lasts. Meanwhile, I’m just focused on other stuff. I wish I was better at being present. I think I would actually enjoy myself better. Last summer, I told myself I was only going to do stuff that made me happy. I tried to say no if I didn’t want to do it. I started losing that battle pretty quick. I say yes way too much. Most of the time I want to, but I over book myself. Be here at five? Yes. Be here at seven? Yes. Be here at nine? Yep, no problem. Three different plans with barely any time between them all the time. That’s just an example, but you get the point. I spread myself too thin. I worry about how I’m going to get from here to there and not disappoint anyone. If I was better at being present, I would get to enjoy what I was doing in the moment instead of thinking about my next set of plans. This all sounds like when I’m with people, I’m thinking about something else or want to move on. That is not true! I still enjoy my time, I just think I could enjoy it better by not worrying so much. I don’t think much will change this summer though. I hate saying no. I hate missing out on stuff. I think something that will change is how I divide my time up, but I’m not sure how. That is a June issue. Time flies! Happy Friday!