Two Things I Hate Most

Before this post starts, I do want to warn people I talk about my eating habits, that aren't considered to be terribly healthy. I make fun of myself a little bit for my inability to spend money on food. If that bothers you in anyway, please feel free to skip this post and come back Monday!

Thank you!

There are two things I hate more than anything in this world. One of them is eating, and the other is spending money. When you combine those two things, it can really irk me. Like most things in my life, I can’t remember when either of these hatreds began or when they peaked. For the last few years, I’ve definitely started to see eating as a chore. I find it a waste of time and it doesn’t make me feel good. Garlic mashed potatoes might be the outlier for things that aren’t a waste of time to eat. I feel like I have to shove things down my throat just to keep on living. I think if I didn’t, I’d just never eat. I'm always moving around so much that I never remember to eat. I'll go a whole day and finally remember to at ten o'clock at night. My boss over the summer said to me that she’d love to invent a pill you could take once a day that gave you all the nutrients you needed. You just take the pill and that's it. No eating! This sounds fucking fantastic to me! I would do anything to have a few of those pills. Now, when I have to go out and spend money on food, that makes me double upset. I’m buying something I don’t want for something I don't want to do. It's like buying a broom every time your mom makes you sweep the floors. New York City prices are skyrocketing, and that just makes matters worse. I think I’d be better off investing in that pill, to be honest. Being an RA does have some food perks that come along with the job. We get, in my opinion, a substantial amount of money to spend at the dining hall. One semester of it is probably enough for one academic year of my appetite. That means I have extra money to burn. If that is part of my compensation, you better believe it is getting spent. I leave nothing on the table. You know what is fucking crazy? I still have a hard time spending the money they give me for food. I don’t know what's wrong with me. Everything is technically free, but it is wired into my soul that $12 for a bowl of rice with a little bit of pork is insanity. I force myself to do it, but it hurts. I couldn’t care less when I buy Vitamin Water and Snickers, because those are delicacies. Along with my hatred for eating comes my hatred for drinking. I can stand drinking water. I’m much better about it recently due to my access to free Liquid Death, but sometimes I forget to drink or just don’t want to. I get headaches a lot from not eating or drinking. I’m getting better, but I am also getting cheaper. We will have to figure this one out and I'm sure I will someday. Happy Friday, everyone, and have a great weekend!